“What’s wrong with me?” I asked myself in a frustrated and condemning tone. I had forgotten an appointment and missed an important call that morning, so that same question had popped into my head more than once. But it wasn’t just a question, it was an assumption, a label of defect I slapped on myself…
Something Needed To Change
You Don’t Have To Do It All
I closed my eyes and pressed two fingers gently on my right eyelid, hoping that would stop the twitching. . It was early December and my brain would not stop listing all the things I needed to do, gifts I needed to buy, plans and decisions I needed make! Then there was laundry to wash,…
I’ve Cancelled My Plans for the Perfect Christmas
I caught myself whispering an unrealistic secret to my heart, “Maybe this will be the year everything goes as planned, and we’ll have the perfect Christmas.” Perfect is what I’d always wanted for Christmas, but in all my years of living, I’ve never been able to pull it off. Perfect looks like peace on earth and in my home for twenty-four hours. A…
Somewhere Between Disappointment and Trust
I watched his shoulders as he walked up the mountain through the fog, hoping his posture would tell me how he was feeling. Raindrops trickled down his suit coat, and I thought to myself, I will never forget watching my son climb this muddy mountain to wait for his bride. Josh and Brandi had…
While You Are Sleeping
Startled by the silence, I sat up in bed so I could see the neon red lights that told me it was three in the morning, time to feed the baby. But Andrew hadn’t made a sound. Was something wrong? Or was he sleeping through the night? Wavering between panic and joy, I felt…