Fearful. Betrayed. Abandoned. Unloved. Unworthy. Unwanted.
These are a few words that defined Donna and cast shadows over her. Here’s Donna’s story…
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Fearful. Betrayed. Abandoned. Unloved. Unworthy. Unwanted.
These were shadows from a past that would haunt me for years. A past that would hold me hostage and keep me from fully living in the light of God’s love.
Fearful as I watched a hot plate of spaghetti thrown across the kitchen. Fearful as I watched furniture crash against walls. Fearful as my dad fell to the ground a few feet from my mom after he’d swung at her and lost his balance.
Betrayed after my intoxicated father sat me on the back of a horse without a saddle or reins to hold, and then swiped the horse’s rear end. Betrayed as he laughed with his friends while I went sailing through the air and landed on a barb wired fence.
Abandoned and unwanted when my dad filed divorce papers and when I discovered he failed to even get my name and birthday correct on them. Abandoned each time my dad refused to pay child support. Unwanted as years went by without visits, phone calls, hugs, birthday gifts.
Unloved and unworthy when my dad broke promise after promise… to visit, to call, to show up for my high school graduation, to pay for college.
Fearful, betrayed, abandoned, unloved, unworthy, and unwanted. Words and emotions that I let define me and cast shadows over me … until July 2011.
Through several of my Pastor’s sermons and through a friend’s father passing away, I sensed God asking: “How would you feel and what would you do if your Dad were to die this very day?”
I had no answer. I didn’t even know or really even think I liked my dad, much less loved him. Fifteen years had gone by since I’d seen him.
Around that same time, God challenged me with two words: ACCEPT and CHOICE
I had a choice and I made it. Following God’s nudging, on July 1, 2011 I went to see my father and accepted him for who he is.
In doing so, for the first time ever, I was able to ACCEPT my past. God made it perfectly clear to me that I could not change my dad nor my past. My only job was to pray for my Dad. I cannot tell you the burden that lifted from my entire being on July 1st.
God took my acceptance one step further. He told me I had a CHOICE!
A choice to believe that He is who He says He is. A choice to believe His promises; a choice to believe I was worth dying for; a choice to be filled with His joy; a choice to let Him be my Father, my Abba Daddy; a choice to live with a confident heart.
And it’s up to me to make those choices 24/7. Not just on Sunday. Not just at 9am when my day starts – but constantly make those choices. So I get up every morning and choose to believe that God is a Promise Keeper. I make the choice – to believe He loves me like no other can nor will, to pray for my Dad, to let go of the anger. I choose to live in the Light of Jesus so I can have a the freedom and security of a confident heart.
There are days, even minutes, that I don’t make the right choices. But the good thing is as I get better and better at making those choices my rebound time gets shorter and shorter. I get quicker at turning back to the Light.
I’m praying for you today – that together we can turn towards and live in the Light of God’s love. That He’ll give us courage to make the choices He’s asking us to make and accept what He’s calling us to accept so that we can keep turning and growing.
Lord, thank You for Your promises. I thank You that You have called me out of the darkness and into Your light. Thank You for transforming my heart into a heart like Yours. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
Donna, sweet friend, thank you for boldly believing Jesus and walking in obedient trust of His calling on your life. Your story and your faith challenge and encourage me to listen for His voice and do the hard thing of believing Him when my feelings are demanding their way. I”m so grateful for the Light and the way you walk in Him!
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Connecting in Community & A Giveaway: What is God speaking to your heart as you read Donna’s story o? Or is there something in chapter 5 that resonated with a change, a choice or a place of acceptance God’s inviting you to? Let’s share here and/or some of the answers to our end of chapter questions this week. Whatever is on your heart.
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Thank you for sharing. There are so many hurts in our pasts that we need to choose to give over to the Lord and let Him heal and repair. It is only through our giving all our hearts over to Him do we get the gift of true peace. Something all of us long for but so often don’t go about finding it through our Lords healing.
Chris,
I love how you talk about His peace. He so wants each of us to live in His peace. And you are so right, it goes take us constantly giving our hearts over to Him. It takes action on our part – that surrendering of our will to His will. Thanks for the reminder.
Blessings,
Donna B
One, among many things, that grabbed my heart in chpt 5 was about reciting God’s promise in order to turn our hearts and thoughts toward God and off ourselves. I need to make it a priority to have His promises hidden in my heart. I have horrible fear and anxiety about flying. I avoid it at all costs. Our family is flying to my inlaws this July. I am already fighting the doubt and fear of getting on the plane. As I am reading A Confident Heart, I realize how I need to take my eyes off me and claim God’s promises He has for me. I am thankful for how God is using A Confident Heart and posts like Donna’s to change lives to the glory of God.
Sherri,
Thanks for sharing how God is working in your life and heart. Take a look at Chapter 12 in Renee’s book and read it over and over and memorize some of God’s promises as you face your fear of flying. Take em and claim em in your heart for not only that upccoming plane ride but for your every day walk with Him.
He loves you like crazy!!
Donna B.
Donna,
thank you for sharing that. I saw myself. For years I tried to change people or to get the to see what I see but I realized God reveals Himself to those who are seeking Him not those who aren’t open to Him. My job is not to force or pry just to love. My dad was almost the same way. I received a word that I was to get it right with my dad. I was terrified of my dad. I kept getting the same word. Finally I called and he was so excited to hear from me. He told me so many wonderful things that he never said before that my spirit longed to hear! God knew what I needed. I was also able to process the pain of the past and tell him how I really felt. He apologized to me! I cry just typing this. Not long after we rebuilt our relationship my dad was called home to be with the Lord. I so miss him! I thought God played a bad trick on me to take my dad after we made up. I realize now how much pain I would have felt had I of not obeyed. I feel compassion for my two sisters as they were not willing to process the pain or to have any contact with my father. They are still grieving that opportunity and it was in 2008. I praise God for your sharing and I can’t say enough about a Confidant Heart. Each chapter is like peeling back a layer of a beautiful flower and God revealing yet Himself! He is sweeter than the honey on the honeycomb! I am tasting and seeing that the Lord is good with each chapter and each breakthrough that comes from processing. surrendering and turning toward Him The marvelous light! Thanks ladies and much love to you both!
August Rose,
Now, you have me in tears! Praising God that His plan for you included restoration with your Dad before he passed away. What an amazing gift that He personally gave you. Love how His thoughts and His plans are higher than ours!
So blessed and thankful that God is using Renee and A Confident Heart to reveal Himself in new ways to you. I believe that the message that God has given Renee is one that every woman should read and apply to their hearts and their life. So thankful that God included Renee and her story in my healing.
Have a blessed day and weekend,
Donna B.
August Rose-
I’m so glad that you were able to make it right with your Dad before he was called home- I feel the very same as you, my two siblings still have a chance- I just don’t think they will reach out? I love your saying: My job is not to force or pry but to LOVE…sometimes that’s all that’s left to do… LOVE like Jesus would love!
Thank you for sharing your story too. We are so blesed by Donna B & Renee!
Aloha from Hawaii xoxoxoxox
Gail and Donna,
Thank you very much!!!!! I normally do not post comments. My heart was actually pounding when I wrote the earlier post. But afterwards I felt a release!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Praise God! He is sooooooooo faithful!!!!!
Peace and Blessings to all!
RT
Praising HIM with you RT!!! Thanks for your boldness and courage!!
Donna, I so want to make the right choices and walk in forgiveness! I have been reading the various stories of my sisters in Christ and have been truly touched and blessed! I am praying and looking to the Light as I go from glory to glory. I made the choice to call my mom. Although I did not get an answer (which is typical of her not answering my calls), the most important thing is I called. I did the opposite of what my flesh wanted! I plan to retread chapters 4 and 5 and continue on this healing/forgiving/making right choices journey! Still working out my salvation with fear and trembling!
You and Renee are a God send!
God speed to you, Renee and all of my sisters in Christ who are on this healing journey! God is ABLE!!!
Blessings!!
Donna’s story spoke to me in the sense that we always have a choice, to become bitter or better; to become a victim or a victor; to not forgive and carry that heaviness or to forgive and be set free.
God bless you Donna. Thank you for sharing your story with us. So many people you will encourage with this.
ANA M,
Thank you so much for your kind words and I love your comment about become a victim or a victor. God so desires and gives us every opportunity in Him to choose victory and to walk in victory!!
VICTORY AND FREEDOM IN HIM!!! What a great way to live!!
Donna B.
Thank you for sharing, Donna! I’m 24 and still learning how to accept a “dad” that I don’t even know. A “dad” that I have no recollection of and that I’ll probably never meet – unanswered questions will never be answered.
I looked more into what “Abba Father” means which led me to Romans 8:15-16. I find great comfort in these verses!
Oh, and July 1 is also my birthday! 🙂
xo
Happy Birthday to you on July 1st! A really good day in my calendar these days!! Praying God to fill you will His peace as you deal and live with unanswered questions. Praying for God to fill you with Himself and reveals Himself to you in BIG ways as your Daddy!
Donna B
Thanks for sharing your story, Donna. And thanks for posting it up, Renee. Truly, those words (Fearful. Betrayed. Abandoned. Unloved. Unworthy. Unwanted.) resonated with me back in my childhood years and it has just recently resurfaced with my current friendship struggles. I really needed to hear those two words again: Accept and Choice. I have had good days when I have come to accept and have chosen to believe that God is for me but then crashed and burned whenever the storm hit hard. Indeed, it is truly a choice and I pray for God’s grace to make the right choices day in and day out. I would love to read the book one day. God bless you…
JessCC,
You are so welcomed and praying for you as you make those choices too! Praying God to fill you with His wisdom as struggle with your friendships. Praying that not only to you see God as your Abba Father but that you see Him and experience Him as your friend as well!
He loves you and your heart!
Donna B
Donna –
Thank you for sharing your testimony- I too made peace with my Dad- he was an alcholic, He and my Mom would argue & fight so much I was a kid then- eventually this led to divorce- My Dad had an affair and ultimately broke my mom’s heart- He married that woman he had the affair with. I was angry with him but I loved him so it was so hard not having him around helping me with choices, that Dad’s would help their daughters do? how to fix a flat maybe change the oil in the car-I missed out of hugs, birthday presents, didn’t make it to my graduation either- never gave us child support- we survived on welfare. But when I graduated from High School this was 1982 ( I know I’m dating myself) I made it a point to fly to Louisiana and see my Dad for the first time in quite some time-it was my first trip on a plane going that far away from Hawaii…When I got to the airport my stepmom greeted me? I asked “Where’s my Dad” She said he went to the car – he’s crying he can’t believe your a young woman, he only remembers his baby… When we went to the car my Dad’s eyes were red and so was his nose… I hugged him so so hard- and told him “It’s okay Dad-it’s okay” He said “How can you forgive this old fool” I said I forgave you a long time ago…Daddy… and you are my Hero, today and always! I’m making that trip to Lousiana this December to visit with him again – we have kept in touch since then always talking on the phone mailing letters & cards to eachother – while my brother & sister won’t have anything to do with him, I chose to keep in touch and treat him with love & respect and kindness, it’s been over 20 years since we last saw eachother- I’ve battled Breast Cancer, my Dad would call after each of my chemo treatments to see how I was doing- I love him, no matter what happened in the past… we have to move foward.
So Donna Thank you for sharing such a similiar story… and Thank you for the video- I will hang on to the lyrics:
INTO THE MARVELOUS LIGHT I’M RUNNING,
OUT OF THE DARKNESS
OUT OF THE SHAME
BY THE CROSS YOU ARE THE TRUTH
YOU ARE THE LIFE YOU ARE THE WAY!
“Aloha Ke Akua” “God Is Love”
Aloha from Hawaii oxoxoxoxox
Donna from Hawaii!!!
PRAISING GOD IN MY LOUD VOICE FOR YOU AND FOR YOUR DAD!! And how God has restore your relationship. Love how you love like Jesus!! And YES!!! FORWARD is a great direction to be moving in!!
Big Hugs from the Main Land and save travels here to see your Dad,
Donna B.
Thank you so much Donna! You & Renee truly are heaven sent to all of us women who share the same hurts… To all my sisters in Christ Have a Safe & Fun Filled Memorial Weekend! Pray for our Soldiers serving- may they feel the hand of Jesus upon each of their shoulders- And to all those who have been taken from us too soon, Thank you for serving your country with your life-And all our veteran’s you all deserve purple hearts! God Bless all of you.
ALOHA KE AKUA- “GOD IS LOVE”
Aloha from Hawaii xoxoxoxoxo
Donna you are awesome in Christ! Thanks for sharing your post. I am glad I went to visit my father as well. I pray your family heals and finds the hope we have in letting go of the past. God’s blessings on you in Hawaii and I pray healing for you always! August Rose
August Rose-
What a beautiful beautiful name! I can’t wait to visit my Dad in December! Thank you for your prayers- my two siblings don’t even call him – nor do we keep in touch with eachother. My sister is a drug addict on Meth- I tried so hard to help her- finally I had to give it to God because I can’t help her unless she helps herself-all I can do is pray. My brother- chose to disconnect from the family after my Mom passed away in 2005- He has a lot of anger issues- again I had to give it up to God- I had to pray hard- because I felt the need to fix it-fix my family? But I just couldn’t… I went through Breast Cancer and survived… I did this all on my own,it was the help of friends the helped me through it, because my siblings are the way they are… I forgive them and love them no matter how my heartaches.
On the lighter side of things…. My Dad has beautiful ocean blue eyes and blonde hair… I have light brown eyes and dark-brown hair… it’s so funny when we get together with the family in Lousiana & Mississippi…
God Bless you August Rose- I so love your name 🙂
Aloha from Hawaii xoxoxoxox
Thank you for sharing your story, Donna. I love how you said the time it takes to rebound gets shorter as you get better at Making the right choices! Thank you (and Renee) for also reminding me that I have a choice to make–despite my emotions. We can choose to forgive like you and Renee both have shared, and this leads us into light and freedom. Having choice is very powerful and I know this word was meant to bring freedom to many.
Thanks for sharing the song, too. We sing this worship song at church sometimes, but it hadn’t come to mind as I read. What a perfect representation of all that we are learning about our father and our savior! We are running out of darkness and shame, and oh! What sweet freedom we find there in God’s light. We are free indeed!
BLESS THE LORD, OH MY SOUL, AND ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME! BLESS HIS HOLY NAME!
Thanks for the encouragement today! Bless you.
Rhonda G,
You are so welcome and thank you for sharing your heart and thoughts here today. I think I am the one walking away so blessed … first by God using Renee and her story to heal my hurts and pain and secondly that God would use mine to heal others. And the best of both of those it that God gets all of the glory!! It is all His doing and His work in and through all of us!
Blessings and hugs,
Donna B
Renee, glad you are feeling so much better, Donna thank you for sharing your story. When I read stories like yours, I think of how many other people are going through times like yours and some worse than others and some have no way out. A verse that kept coming into my mind through chapter 5 reading and than reading your story was Genesis 4:7 ” If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it.” Every time we choose darkness it desires to have us but when we choose light we are in the light and we need to stay in the light. But the mastering of choosing the light is a daily learning and listening to the nudging of the Holy Spirit to help us along~~~~~~~~forgiveness is a hard road but you made the right choice, you chose light.
Susan M,
Thanks for sharing…especially the verse in Genesis. I had forgotten that one. And you are so right on with your comment about mastering our choosing the light – it is a daily learning and listening opportunity for all of us …. And yep forgiveness is a hard road and it took me many years ….
Blessings to you,
Donna B
Your honesty and your heart are absolutely captivating, thank you for sharing!
Elena,
Thank you so much for your kind words. It’s all God and his work in my heart and in my life. He gets all the glory!!
Donna B
DONNA,
THANK YOU FOR PUTTING THIS SO I FINALLY SEE WHAT I NEED TO DO. MY FATHER DID THE SAME TO ME. UNFORUNATELY, NOT TO MY OLDER SISTER. THIRTY YEARS LATER AND HE STILL REFUSES TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME. BUT IS AT HER HOUSE DOING FOR HER EVERYDAY. I ALWAYS FELT THAT I WASN’T GOOD ENOUGH, LACKING.
I AM STARTING TO FIND MY WAY TO MY TRUE FATHER, GOD AND IN HIS EYES I AM JUST AS I SHOULD BE AND JUST AS HE MADE ME.
THANK YOU TO RENEE AND YOU FOR HELPING ME FIND MY WAY
Praying for you as you let go and let God help you forgive your father and your sister, too.
Praying for you Kay as you deal with your pain. Praying that you will release it and let it go and give it to God and let Him heal your heart. Crawl up into His lap and give it ALL to Him! Prasing Him for your journey to His heart! And YES! Keep your eyes on HIM!!! He loves you like no other can nor will!!
Praying and praising Him for you!
Donna B
Dear Donna,
This is lovely. Your heart is beautiful. Every word of your testimony is life-giving. Thank you for sharing.
You are bold. You are brave. You are more than a conqueror. So grateful for your steadfast to His heart. It’s deep and wide and long and high and never-ending . . . for YOU!!
Much love, Sam
Sweet Sweet Sam Antha!!
I so love your heart and your encouragement! You so shine your light for Jesus and for others! Love your servant’s heart and how you love like Jesus! So blessed to have you in my life. Thankful for your amazing gift of friendship.
Thank you for teaching me to say “Yes” to Him and to His asks!!! Getting excited to your “YES” video to El Salvador and Compassion.
Love ya Sam!!!
Thanks for sharing your story. This is all too familiar for me. I didn’t talk to my dad for years growing up. As an adult I learned that I had to accept him for who he is and pray for him. There is nothing more that I can do. He doesn’t always make the best decisions, but no one does. I can’t judge him. That’s not my job. I think it was easier for me to forgive him because my mom had already forgiven him for the abuse she suffered with him. She is an incredibly strong person and I have learned so much through her. My dad will now tell me, when he’s drunk, how proud he is of the woman I have become. I don’t hear it often, but I know that somewhere in there he really is proud of me. I have to remember that he doesn’t know how to show love and that’s ok. My children now sit on his lap and love on him, which makes him feel uncomfortable, but I think he really enjoys it 🙂
Thanks for this incredible book. It has really opened my eyes and my heart.
Tricha,
Thanks for sharing your story.Love how God has given us both the same instructions when it comes to our Dads.
And I too love Renee’s book and stories. She makes it so real and she is so transparent. And I just love her heart! She makes me smile, laugh and cry all with the same sentence!
Praying for you as your continue in your A Confident Heart journey!
Blessings upons blessings for you,
Donna
Donna- thanks again for your message of hope! My question for you is can you expand on what you did in regards to the date July 1,2011? I guess what I struggle with in regards to my past is how does one forgive and then never re- visit that past pain? I see myself in your story and God- willing I can move forward to accept and choice just wondering and looking for insight!
Julie
Julie,
I live in Kansas City, Missouri and my mom, sisters and Dad live in Texas. And I don’t get home but a couple of times a year, three times at the most. God kept prompting me to go see my Dad. And my Dad lives a couple of hours from my oldest sister. And in the past, I flat out refused to use “my vacation” or as my mind would tell me, “waste my vacation days” on my Dad. Besides, he never used his on me … yes, I can and did justify so much when it came to my Dad. My heart was concrete hard!! And I knew that I would never go see him by myself because we would have nothing to talk about … dead silence in my mind … yes more justification. So I called my sister as she always hosts a party for the family on the 4th and told her that I wanted to go see him while I was in town. And she about fell out in shock that I wanted to see him!
So we scheduled the visit for July 1st, 2011 out of convenience for both my sisters and off we went to visit him. My little sister picked him up at the nursing home and we all meet at the local restuarant for lunch. His two sisters and one of my cousins that I hadn’t seen in about 25 years or so also meet us there.
So that’s why it was July 1st and why the date stuck out to me! It was one of the largest turning points in my life outside of accepting Jesus into my heart!
And I was just getting ready to lead “A Confident Heart” in my home and had just signed up for Melissa Taylor’s online study of A Confident Heart. God was so preparing my heart for this study and the truths that Renee had laid out in the book. It was all such a God thing! There is so much more to the story and how God used Renee and her story to impact my decision to not only see my Dad, but also forgive, accept and to continue to make the right choices.
And trust me, I will re-visit my past pain again….probably about Father’s Day this year and then again around July 1st as I head home for my nephews baby shower.. . but I now know what triggers my doubts and my behaviors so I can now anticipate the feelings, the doubts, the anger but as I stated earlier, the rebound time will be less. Renee will share more on triggers in a future chapter.
This is probably more info that you needed … but I ramble alot … sorry … hope this helps you and I will be praying for you as your move forward toward the LIGHT …. the key is to never loss sight of the LIGHT!!
Praying dear sister,
Donna
I never realized how much God loved me till he gave me a revelation about it about a year ago… He opened up my eyes and my heart to see how much he loved me after I had stepped out of his will. God loves us so much, so much to spank us when we rebel… to chastise us. I’m so thankful for God’s love. He is the light, and I truly believe when you step out of God’s will, and you truly come back to him with a repenting heart he will take your wrongs and make them right again.
Question # 5 Answer:
When I read the statement in this section that said, “It’s important for us to realize that damaged emotions and insecurities from our past have a powerful influence over how we see ourselves today…” a memory popped into my mind from my past. I dated a guy for about 5 years, and from the beginning to almost the end of it, he always belittled me. He always made me think I wasn’t pretty enough, smart enough, that I talked too much, that I had no worth or significance. I noticed at the time when he would say things that hurt me, I would only get sad or hurt. Some words would make me cry, or really sad. But little did I know how they would “infect” me later on, because I didn’t deal with them at the time. I’m pretty good about always putting a smile on my face even when I don’t feel like smiling. I always wants to help others, or lift others up, and sometimes a smile will do just that. I see how important is to surround yourself with people that ‘affect’ you for the good, and not “infect” you for the bad.
Just like a sickness, you get an infection… People we hang out with either affect us for the good, or infect us for the bad. What friends are we associating ourselves with? Are they helping us grow in the Lord?… or are they infecting us with their sickness. They that are whole need not a physician, but they that are sick. What are we allowing others to put in our hearts and minds? It’s not the things that go in a man that defileth him, but the things that come out of the heart. Just felt led to share this…
Kim,
WOW!! Thanks so much for sharing! Praising Him for how He has revealed Himself and His love to you! I love how He uses different things in our lifes to reveal Himself to us!
Thanks so much for sharing your heart and your life with us.
Blessings,
Donna B
When I read stories like that it amazes me. What people have to go through, how people are shaped, and molded. What an amazing story! Thank you for sharing. I “struggle” to relate in some ways, because I feel as though I don’t have a story to tell. Plain Jane & simple…… and yet I struggle daily, lacking in confidence, lacking in trust…… worrying, etc……
I am very much enjoying this study!! Thank you!!
Laurie,
I think you have a story. You will be amazed at the lifes you touch and not even realize that you are touching them.
And I’m thinking that God just used your honesty above to touch someone’s heart in this group. You are not alone in your struggles and I admire your courage and boldness in sharing them. Keep turning those pages in A Confident Heart and I’m praying that God will increase your confidence with each line read!
Thanking God for your courage to share your heart!! And praying for God to increase your belief in Him, your trust in Him and your confidence in Him and in yourself. Praying he takes those doubts away and replaces them with His promises. Cheat a little and read and re-read the promises that Renee shares with us in Chapter 12. She won’t mind that you took a sneak peak at it. I use Chapter 12 every day to beat back my doubts.
Praying for you and thanking Him for you!
Donna B
Rejected, abused, abandoned, unloved, unwanted but one day Like Donna, God showed me that I had a choice. Other people’s words and actions do not define me. God’s love embraced me, His son died for me, I am His daughter, loved beyond life itself. He chose me, wants me and has promised over and over never to leave me. I remind myself daily that I have a choice; I choose to trust Him. I love the promises of His word, in Jesus I am a new creation, I don’t have to understand this life, just trust the one who holds my future and accept His love for me.
Praising God for you and with you! I love how He works in our lifes! Thanks for sharing.
Donna B
Reading Nehemiah this week Chapter 1…I have read it for years…yet, for the first time I noticed it has an amazing prayer in Chapter 1:5 through 11….great cleansing prayer…for life….. Also praying for you through the cough. Hope you know the importance of getting a Whooping cough booster. The one we receive as a child needs a “booster.” I received one a few years ago when I was having my updated Tetanus shot. A lot of these “prolonged coughing episodes” can be possible “whooping cough.” Praying for a quick recovery so you can give that beautiful Aster a hugggg!!!!
“A choice to believe that He is who He says He is. A choice to believe His promises; a choice to believe I was worth dying for; a choice to be filled with His joy; a choice to let Him be my Father, my Abba Daddy; a choice to live with a confident heart.” By Donna, Your testimony show the cast of doubt and shadows in life, but turns with courage and confidence. Praise the Lord for your strength and your testimony. I have a shadow of doubt that continues to haunt me, in regards to a family relationship situation. I have peace in my heart after admitting for my part in the mistake, for asking for forgiveness from those affected and for lots of praying to our Lord. But my doubt comes from not knowing if I will ever be welcomed again. This is the part of my past that I am having difficultly with. Your words ACCEPT and CHOICE, hit hard at home with me, I have learned and become closer to the Lord with this situation, and I continue to work on forgiveness to release the anger and hurt daily. Thank you for your story this gives me hope and faith, that God is the light to follow forever, even in difficult times or good times. Lifting up prayers for our sister in Christ, especially those in our bible study, that the Lord touches each ones heart and each will continue to seek God as their light for each and everyday. May the Lord continue to bless you, Donna, God Bless, your sister in Christ
Pam Z,
So blessed by your encouraging words. So thankful for you and for allowing God to use you. Praying for you and you continue to do the next right GOD thing with your family relationship. Praying for you as wait patiently for Him to do the work and as you pray for your family. Praying for God to continue the growth in your heart and in your life.
Thanks again for your encouragement.
Donna B
Donna thank you for the prayers,your thoughtful words of prayer bring tears to my eyes, God Bless w Love Sister in Christ……
Just when I think all is going to be resolved, the doubt flares up again. Again, it has brought pain fo myself and my daughter. Please pray that situation can be resolved in our hearts, in our love for our family not matter what has happened in the past, and that forgiveness with hope is placed in each of our hearts. For I have shed more tears with the question that have been ask in regards to our character… the pain endured and the escape was to run and hide, sit and cry, but I found that turning to God and discussing it with my daughter brought hope for ourselves, but the doubt still lingers for others. Thank you in advance for the prayers. God Bless