Have you ever wondered why you are the way you are or why you do things the way you do? I remember all the way back to Jr. High feeling like I didn’t really like who I was. I’d compare myself to those around me and try to figure out who people liked most, so I could be like them. It was exhausting!
I want to to talk a little more today about something I shared in my devotion, “The Real Me” featured at Proverbs 31 and Crosswalk. The journey God’s taken me on to become the woman He created me to be has totally changed my life, and all of my relationships, for the better. I hope I can encourage you today with somethings I’ve learned.
First of all, comparison can be my worst enemy. My friend Genia summed it up well one day when we were talking about it. She said, “When we compare ourselves with someone else, we can never measure up because we compare our insides with their outsides.”
She’s right. I usually compare how I feel on the inside with how someone else looks like they have it all together on the outside. Paul talks about the comparison trap in 2 Corinthians 10:12, “but when they measure themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are without understanding.”
Comparison leaves us confused and discontent. It causes us to compete with each other but God never intended for women to compete with each other; He wants us to complete one another. Seriously, He wants us to encourage each others’ strengths and then be who He created us to be.
Paul explains why in 1 Corinthians 12:18-20, “But now God has placed the parts, each one of them in the body just as He wanted. And if they were all the same part, where would the body be? Now there are many parts, yet one body.”
The truth is: You are uniquely you because God has a unique purpose for your life. God created you with a unique personality because you play an important role in the story He’s writing in your life. You are “God’s masterpiece…created anew in Christ so that [you] can do the good things He planned for [you] long ago.” Ephesians 2:10, (NLT)
There are certain thing He wants to do through your life and that is why He gave you a personality that is one-of-a-kind! In her book, Personality Plus, Florence Littauer describes four personality types. Most of us are a blend of two. See if you can relate to the desires and emotional needs of one or two of these:
Phlegmatic: Desires PEACE
Needs times of quiet, reduced stress, feeling of worth, relaxation
Choleric: Desires CONTROL
Needs appreciation for achievements, opportunity for leadership, and participation in decisions
Sanguine: Desires FUN
Needs attention, affection, approval, activity with people
Melancholy: Desire PERFECTION
Needs sensitivity, stability, support, space, silence
- Which personality best describes you?
- What are your greatest strengths? What are things you think you need to work on?
- What challenges do you face in discovering your unique “you”?
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Wow Renee, this really hits home. I am a mother of 2 grown boys, 50 years old and have struggled with these thoughts for some time. I read the devotional every morning then pass on to 2 dear friends. It is encouraging to know that I'm not the only one feeling this! It is truly a gift from God to read your insights today and to let me know I'm not the only one! Thanks for sharing and I'll keep praying about God's will for my life.
Susan
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At the age of 43 I really don't know who I am. I've spent my whole life pleasing others.
This devotion has struck a cord in my heart but where do I being?
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I am a 38 year-old working mom of two. Seems I've been asking God for so very long what purpose He created me for. The Word says He has given every one of us gifts and talents to be used for His kingdom….still looking for mine. I am barely, barely beginning to come to a small realization of one thing I think may be my "passion", but have NO IDEA how to even begin moving in that direction (because, of course, it seems impossible!), or even really how to specifically define it.
I've done all the tests (personality, spiritual gifts, strength finders, colors, animals, Bible characters, Meyers-Briggs, you name it) but the only one that really seemed applicable is the one you mentioned – I am most definitely Melancholy/Phleg! But I seem to have none of the STRENGTHS of a melancholy, and ALL of the weaknesses of a phleg! Yay. And knowing my personality type really doesn't tell me much about my life's purpose….
It's frustrating that we have to spend (literally) half our lives not living in our purpose because we can't figure out what it is. I would love to do the book and workbook you are giving away, but still I think God reveals His purpose for us when He's ready. As I said, I've done all the tests….until He's ready to show me, nothing I can do will make a difference.
Valerie
West Texas
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Thanks for this devotion today Renee. I can really relate to this topic! I am a people pleaser or a "Ms. Fix it" as my family would call it. I am the last person that gets MY attention in my life. There is always something else that comes up or pushes it way to the front of my "list" and I know it needs to stop. Thanks for putting the words down on paper (email) so I may pick them up!
I pray the Lord leads me to where I need to be so I can start to please him and not everyone else!
Wow! 230 comments before mine…and every woman on here can relate. Makes me realize that I'm truly not alone in my struggles.
I am 33 years old and I too have spent a lot of time comparing myself to others…trying to fit in and be everything to everyone. You're right, it's exhausting! Honestly, I think I've gotten a lot better (with the Lord's help) in this way in the past few years, but even now I still struggle.
I am a phlegmatic/choleric mix. Strange mix I think, but…it's true. It's also strange that it took me so many years to figure that out. When I was a teenager we studied this in church. I thought I was a melancholy because my mom was a melancholy. 🙂
Comparison goes right along with the reaccuring theme in my life lately. We are reading the book, "The Uncommon Woman" by Susie Larson in our book study right now. I have read this book before, but for some reason the first chapter that takes a look at insecurity "hit me" a lot harder this time. Susie ventures to say that insecurity is another form of selfishness. When we're insecure we make decisions with ME in mind. I'm thinking the same is true of comparison. At least something to think about. 🙂
Thanks for being obedient, Renee. I appreciated this post today.
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thanks for the devotions and follow up on your blog.
I am Debbie from Pennsylvania my email is
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Wow what an Awesome message you shared in the devotional this morning. All you women at P31 are so blessed with words of encouragment. I have been reading through all of the blogs and relizing that I am not the only one who feels like I am not sure God's plan for my life.
I am 20 years old and just made the first step in really listening to what God wants me to do. I had been dating an awesome Christian man for over 2 years. We had been engaged and were planning a wedding for this October. A month ago God really laid on my heart that I needed to wait to marry this man. So I shared my feelings with my finacee and then postponed the wedding. Then after hours of time spent in prayer and listening to the Lord I knew that I needed to end the relationship. There were things that would not be compatable in a marriage at this point and we both needed to rely on God more in our life before we could get married. This is the hardest thing I have ever done and am really missing this man. I know I am in God's will though, and I have such peace through this all.
Know I am relizing that I was pushing my dreams aside to prepare for married life. I train horses and give riding lessons. I have always wanted to show horses and compete at a Pro level and had been saving up since I was 15 for that. The money I was saving was going towards a wedding and I knew my dreams were never going to be accomplished. I am waiting on the Lord to be sure this is what he wants me to do. I am struggling with the fact that it is not exactly missions or totally for the Glory of God, even though I know he can use me where ever he has me.
I guess I just dont know if God would give me a dream this big that will take so much money and possibly not further his kingdom more. So here I am once again praying and seeking Gods will of what step to take next. I guess I should follow my Big Dreams becasue they were put there by a very Big God.
Anyway not to write a book, but Thanks so much again for all who have been posting it is a great encouragment to other woman. God gives us all dreams we just sometimes get lost in our "To Do" lists to follow our hears.
Amy
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This topic definitely resonates with me. Reading the other posts, it's good to know others in their 40's also struggle with the same thing. I'm 43 and still trying to figure it out.
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Amazing! I have been trying to find myself my whole life. My mom died when I was 5, so being an only child of a controlling father, who loves me very much. My goal in life was to be a mother. I have devoted my life for the past 26 years to my 5 wonderful children. I am divorced & try to please them. I have 3 years before the last one graduates. Then what? I will be able to work on me.
My whole life I have asked myself "Why am I the person I am?", "Why was I born in Iowa to the parents I have?", "What is the purpose in my life?" I am very much a people pleaser, who compares myself to others. I like how it was stated that you can't compare outsides with insides. I feel I have a hard heart now and am very selfish at times. I would like to remarry someday but feel I need to find myself first. I have been reading devotionals and spending more time with God over the past couple of years. I get so caught up in the busyness of life and my kids that there is never enough time for me. It is hard doing things alone and I don't reach out & tend to stay home. I am a teacher & decided to go back to school for my masters & concentrate on me for once. Pray for me to get through it and find myself in the process.
Thanks so much for your devotional, I usually don't search through here after I read it though. God was working! I will pray that God leads me on his righteous path to be the wonderful person I want to be, through him. [email protected]
Wow, this devotion really hit home for me! That would so be me sitting in that group dreading answering that question. I am 48 years old and I don't know who the real me is. I have been married for 25 years to a man that has had control issues that he is improving on with God's help. I have a 24 year old daughter who lives at home with my one year old graddaughter and I have an 11 year old son. I was a stay at home mom until 3 years ago when I got a job at my church as a bible teacher to 4 year olds during the week while their parents came for bible studies of there own. It was something I really enjoyed doing. When my daughter moved in with the baby and went back to work I left my job to stay home and care for my granddaughter. I feel very strongly about leaving my children in day care and that included my granddaughter so I gave up my job for a while. My life is all about making time for God and taking care of my family. That leaves little to no time for me. You have really given me a lot to think about. I will be getting with God on this and getting the books you recomended. I am looking forward to finding me. I have shared this devotional with my 67 year old mom. She raised 10 kids and now it's just her and dad. I went to visit her recently and she is consantly trying to find something to do to keep her busy. That usually involved helping dad do a project. Still peaple pleasing. I pray she will benifit from this too. I can't wait to see what God has in store for us. Thanks Renee for the eye opener.
Tammy from San Antonio, TX
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God led me to this today through my Proverbs 31 devotional. It was exactly what I needed to hear and spoke straight to me. I am 28 yrs old and going through a bit of a rough patch at work. I find myself frustrated when I feel I'm trying to do the right thing when others aren't. I often find myself being a people-pleaser instead of sticking up for myself. You've helped remind me that I need to keep God in focus. I can't help but have tears come to my eyes as I read other women's comments and find that I am not alone in my struggles. I look forward to coming back to your site for more encouragement. Many thanks.
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Thanks for sharing this. It is right on time because now that I have been staying at home for 2 yrs I feel I have forgotten what it meant to be jsut me. Doing what I like to do and actually having dreams for myself. Don't get me wrong I love focusing this time with my children but I can't forget about me. I am going to get back in touch with me and start to discover who this new person is that I am becoming throught this journey of motherhood!
Thanks,
Astra Aker
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I am 34 and I've already been on one heck of a journey recently. I lost my dad 3 years ago and at the same time he was diagnosed with cancer, I met my now, current husband. I had so many emotions going through me at once I don't know if I could really comprehend them. I was baptised 2 years ago on Mother's Day. We've been married for a year now and I am the happiest I've ever been. My husband has helped me grow so much in my relationship with God, but I still do not know what God wants me to do with my life. I keep feeling a tug, but I don't know what to do with it. I've had a low self-esteem most of my life (as I think most women do) and so now that I'm older and a little bit wiser, I realize that it is time to figure me out. I love my family but I know I could be so much better for them as well as myself if I knew what God wanted from me.
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I'm nearly 63 and still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I just go along doing whatever is necessary to keep our family surviving, whether that means working a job I truly don't like just to keep food on the table or allowing my 38 year old daughter to verbally abuse me because she has a need to be hurtful to me, I just do whatever is necessary. I'd love to know what God had planned for me and what I'm missing out on.
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I just want to start off by saying that God is totally blowing me away this last week or so. Especially as I have been reading this today. I have felt myself in constant comparison all my life… with my sister, my mom, my step-sister, my step-mother…. girls I have been in school with, and even CLOSE FRIENDS!!! I always felt different and hated being different because I didn't know why I was! Well, after MANY, MANY not-so-smart choices in my life I have finally surrendered my life to Christ to serve Him wherever He calls me. And I am realizing that I have gone through everything so that I can "bear witness" to others that are experiencing similar things.. like you have been doing! I want to say that I am still not completely aware of His plans for me, but I am now on the road to healing and finding that out! I thank you for being obedient to His calling for you life so that I could have a sister-in-Christ to walk this road with. I am SO looking forward to what God is doing in my life and I'm ready to see who He has called me to be! And where He has called me to go!
Thanks for this great devotional. I am 43 years old and seem to find parts of me in all of those personality types. Any given day or wind shift and I can change! haha! I had a job at my church that ended a few years ago and it began a journey for me to discover why I'm here. The job defined me. I felt that I had a place and a purpose and that I fit in. Then the job ended and I was completely and utterly lost. It was 2 years before I could be at church without crying. It was and can still be a really rough road. I was at a ladies meeting a few months back and the speaker asked us to go be alone somewhere in the church and to read Psalm 139 out loud and really take time to reflect on EVERY SINGLE WORD and how it related to each of us. I was so overwhelmed by realizing (and doesn't that seem stupid at my age) that God KNOWS me. He MADE me and He LOVES me. Just the way I am. No more need to people please. Just HIM. He'll direct my paths. He'll show me my purpose.
Oops, and I am a Melancholy/Sanguine, which is a really odd combination that causes me to have lots of inner struggles, LOL. It's about 70/30 but sometimes that inner sanguine fights hard to get her way!
Well duh, I forgot to include my name, age and location and email in my comment.
Gail Clark, Age 55, Arlington, Texas
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Wow. A friend sent me your Proverbs 31 devotional, and I felt so amazed to find there is another woman out there who also feels like she is still that junior high girl trying to figure out what she wants to be when she grows up. I've taken many personality tests, so I know my personality and my strengths and weaknesses, but because of the path my life has taken, I have never really had the luxury of considering what I really love and what I would passionately want to do if money and time were not obstacles – because they always have BEEN obstacles. Every time I read a book or watch an Oprah episode about "finding your inner passion, following your dream, find the real you" blah blah, I feel so frustrated and like a failure because I feel just like the woman who wrote that devotional – I have NO clue. I have many things I enjoy doing, some that I really love, but I can't ever seem to zero in on the one thing or even a couple of things. I have subscribed to your blog and look forward to reading more on this subject. And it's encouraging to find that many women feel like I do.
I especially love your prayer at the end of the devotional, which focuses not just on God showing me what I should be doing, but asking God to show me how he wants to USE my talents for his purposes. I have printed it out and plan to read and meditate on it as I pray those words. Thank you.
Hi,I am a stay home mom and a wife. This is year a milestone for me. I can't believe I am going to be forty and my daughter, 13 this year.
I relate to so many other ladies how they have expressed themselves. At times, I feel like I cannot even express my feelings. However, I must say that the good Lord has blessed me with so many blessings. I always remind myself not to look at those who seem to have the perfect of everything but to look at those who have less and try to be grateful for what I have. And be a encouragement and help to others.
Thank you for sharing your devotional today. I listen to a local Christian radio that is how I came to know about P31 ministries and ever since (3 months) I have been reading your daily devotions and I have been blessed immensely.
I've been seeking the Lord's guidance in my life as to what to do next. I want to go to school or even get a job. Above all, I want to be that person that God created me to be.
I so clearly remember once a preached preached something like "How God created each one of us (unique) is a gift to us, and what we become (to be Christ like) is our gift to him."
My prayer is that the Lord will reveal His purpose for my life.
Blessings!
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