How hard is it for you to let people know how you’re doing? I mean how you’re really doing.
From reading your thoughts in the comments on Monday’s post, I think we can all realize it’s hard for most of us to keep our guard up and shy away from lettings others in – especially when we need their help, prayers or encouragement.
As I shared in Chapter 2, “Sometimes I think we tell people we’re fine even when we’re not, because we want to be. Or we hope that by saying we are fine, eventually we will be. Other times we act like we’re fine because others expect us to be. And I love how so many of you admitted you also have days when hormones or grumpy-ness trump all good manners and anyone within ten feet knows you are not fine. In fact, what you really meant in code is that you are Frazzled, Irritated, Neurotic, and Exhausted!”
Today, I want you to meet and hear from my friend, Melanie from Only a Breath. She’s the one who created our really cute Online Study blog button (see my sidebar if you want one)! In it she challenges us to take off the “I’m Fine” mask and be real with God, each other and especially ourselves about how we’re really doing.
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… She walks the hallway, fighting back tears that threaten to well up again. It’s been a long night, filled with betrayal and disappointment. Her future is uncertain. Back at the office, she tries to maintain normalcy. When eyes met, she is faced with another routine, “How are you?”
“I’m fine”, she answers, with a plastic smile that hides her pain.
… Across town, a young father shakes hands with the fourth interviewer that month. “Thank you for your time.”he says. On the way home, his wife calls to see if there’ s any hope for the job they’ve been praying for…for so long. They have mouths to feed, children to raise, a car on its last miles… “It will be fine”, he assures her. As he hangs up, he hangs his head in despair.
… A young, single mom cuddles her baby on the park bench. She holds her boy close, surrounded by happy couples with smiling children. She never expected to raise her child alone. The pain is sometimes too much to bear. Will she ever feel that she belongs? That she is wanted? Loved? Beautiful?
“We will be fine she whispers into his soft ear, surrounded by whisps of fine, brown hair.
“I’m fine…”
“We’re fine…”
“Doing great…”
In Chapter 2, Renee invites us to take off the “I’m fine” mask. But she also acknowledges just how scary it is to expose the pain that keeps us up, haunts us like nightmares, and threatens each breath of hope.
… but we’re fine.
Or are we?
Could we take off the mask that we, especially as Christians, live the “fairy tale”? We are certainly blessed, in every circumstance guarded by the Father, but honestly, in the deepest parts, we aren’t fine.
I’m not fine.
If I took off the “I’m fine” mask, would you think less of me, or would you think I’m … human?
We don’t have it all under control, and I can’t help but think that when we act like we do, we basically tell God that we don’t need him.
We’ve got this.
By pretending we’re “fine” we tell others something must be wrong with them if they are hurting… because we certainly are not hurting.
We’re fine.
What if we let someone else in? What if we said, “I’m hurting, and the details aren’t important, but would you please pray for me? I would really appreciate that.” Could that help them, in return, reach out to someone else when they are hurting?
Do we need to grant one another permission to not be fine?
Could we come broken before the Father, and cry out for His mercy and strength? He did promise to never leave us or forsake us. Even when we don’t feel it, could we still cling to His promise and claim it?
He knows we’re not fine.
Could the trials be the very thing that break the strings holding on our mask, allowing it to fall to the ground so we cling to Him a little tighter?
The truth is…
We aren’t fine… We are forgiven.
We aren’t in control… We are held by the hands that control our very heartbeat.
We aren’t invincible… We are made to look to the only One who can heal the broken.
As a sisterhood of hearts seeking our confidence in HIM, let’s take off our masks today. At least here with each other. And maybe with just one other person we meet this week. I have a feeling someone needs to see the battle wounds and scars we carry in order for them to stop pretending and seek His help too.
And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9
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Thank you so much Melanie, for reminding me and all of us again today that God’s grace is sufficient. God’s grace can be my sufficient… if I let it be.
Today’s Assignment:
- Continue or finish reading chapter 2 and answer end of chapter questions. Then come back and share with us what God is showing you about how His perfect love changes everything – especially the pressure to be it all, do it all and know it all – all at the same time.
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It’s so hard not to be fine. It just seems that’s what is expected of us and we expect the same of ourselves. About a month ago I read the book by Angie Smith about the loss of a baby. This book hit my heart hard , I had been there many years ago and realized I never really allowed myself to grieve for our baby we lost. It appeared I was expected to pick myself up and go on, so I did. After reading her book I finally let God in and some walls came down. I still deal with being “fine” but I am doing a little about telling God what He already knows.
Thank you so much for this bible study. I am learning a lot about myself and trying to see myself as God sees me, still find very difficult some days that He loves me like I am. Please pray that all that God wants me to be gets from my head to my heart. I am making some progress.
Jeanne I too experienced the loss of a child. I remember my then husband saying its been two weeks enough already so I put on another mask. I went to church and in the bathrm a sign said “healing heart ministry”. I knew it was God. I was able to let go and let God heal me. The leaders of the group were so kind to me. I learned so much from them. I went back to them when my husband left and they were there again. This time I learned to agree with Gods Word and getmy value, acceptance and security from Him. I.m thankful for this study its showing me other areas Gods wanting to heal in me but I was to ashamed and afriad to let Him. Not anymore. I want every layer pealed back and healed!
My heart is overflowing with thankfulness for your comments! i love this: “I want ever layer peeled back and healed” — YES!!!
Praying for you both! Keep trusting Him!
Melanie
I am doing healinghearts right now and it is deep and wonderful and touching long hidden pain. That and this book together is convicting AND soothing at the same time. I too lost a baby @ 4 months gestation and did not grieve it. Later we raised a grand daughter for 16 years then she was suddenly no longer part of our lives.
“Every layer peeled back and healed”. LOVE THAT!! Thank you Jesus for your healing power!!!
ACH friends,
I’m hurting. I’m stressed beyond my limits and feel like breaking down. The responsible good girl inside of me however says the show must go on and I only push the stress, pain and frustration further down. I need your prayers tonight. I need a breakthrough. Please pray for my relationship with my dad, my co-workers and work in general. I need to feel God’s grace. I need to see His power at work. I feel as though I am holding the world on my shoulders and am about to crack under all of the pressure. I can’t handle the stress and pressure of trying so hard to live up to my dads expectations of me. I’m tired of being afraid of my dad. Please pray for me. Pray that I will be able to feel God holding me! Thank you all so much for your prayers. I know that we serve a faithful God!
Elizabeth -I feel exactly the same way – carrying the weight of the world and about to crack and lose it. Every time I have tried to talk about it to a friend I get a pat answer and they move the conversation on to themselves. People think I can do everythIng at work and have no regard for my time. I know part of this is my fault for allowing it. I keep praying and asking God to bring a great friend into my life to talk to but it apears He would like me to focus entirely on Him. I just feel so alone though i know He is always with me I wish someone would take some interest and care about someone other than themselves. I’m just so tired and run down. I could not help but cry when reading this chapter because it is like it was written for me.
Please pray for me!
Dear Elizabeth!
Remember that your Heavenly Father said you are precious and honored in his sight and He loves you. (Is 43: 4). He has redeemed you, you are His, He is with you when you pass through the waters, the rivers will not sweep over you, you will not be burned when you walk throught the fire. (Is 43: 1-2) A bruised reed he will not break (Is 42: 3) Go to Him with these promises. Ask for His peace which surpasses all understanding. He knows your hurts and longs to heal them. I am praying for you!
Elizabeth,
Sweet friend, I am praying for you right now. God knows your situation and your heart, and He cares for you. I care too, and if you need to talk or if there is anything I can do, please feel free to email me (Melanie at OnlyABreath dot com)
Praying for you right now…
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for Elizabeth. Thank you for her faith in you and her comment that reached out to her sisters in Christ. Lord, I pray that you will strengthen her as she seeks You. Please fill her with your wisdom and peace. Please work out the situation with her father and her co-workers. Lord, we are so overwhelmingly thankful that even if our earthly fathers disappoint, You will never disappoint. Thank you for being our Father and always caring for us and loving us unconditionally. I pray that you will work in Elizabeth’s heart and in her father’s heart so that their relationship will be a beautiful reflection of the love you have for us, your children. Please help us, her sisters, to show her love and to surround her with prayer and encouragement. All healing and hope comes from you, Lord, and we pray You will shower Elizabeth wilth that hope today.
In Jesus’ name.
Amen.
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love,
Melanie
THIS STUDY IS SO AWESOME, SO REAL, SO TRANSPARENT; WE NEED THIS TYPE OF MINISTRY (RENEE’S) IN THE BODY OF CHRIST. HERE, WE CAN BE GENUINE, HUMAN, AND AT THE SAME TIME
EMPOWERED SUPERNATURALLY BY “CHRIST” WHO IS THE ANOINTED ONE. ONLY THROUGH “HIS” HOLY SPIRIT CAN WE UNDERSTAND OUR HUMANITY AND AND ALSO RECEIVE OUR EQUIPPING TO DO WHAT WE CANNOT DO ON OUR OWN. THANK YOU SO MUCH RENEE FOR YOUR WORDS, HONESTY, AND VULNERABILITY IN “A CONFIDENT HEART”! LOVE, GISELLE GRAS
P.S. THOUGH I WROTE WITH CAPITAL LETTERS, I AM NOT SHOUTING; I AM JUST EXCITED AND WANTED TO WRITE BIG! 🙂
I am EXCITED about this study too!!!!! 🙂 Praying you will be very blessed! 🙂
As I was reading chapter 2 I came across something and Jesus opened my eyes and I wanted to share with you. It was a rather important aha moment for me. When reading about Sam and rereading her story and her conversation with Jesus I had to stop. I have written an audio bio of my childhood and the abuse as a child – the name I gave my character was Sam. Until this moment I had not put the two together to see I WAS Sam. This story was me, because of events of my past and the relationships which came about because of the abuse I suffered, I had been searching the hearts of men looking for the one thing the perfect bridegroom could give me Jesus. But because he wasn’t flesh and blood to me as he was to Sam I did not “see” him as the one true satisfy of my soul. The moment I saw this I began praying asking for forgiveness. I can’t wait to see what else Jesus has to reveal to me next.
Debi, I so related to your email. I am Sam as well. I have had three husbands and was deceivedin my thinking about men and God. My father was very abusive. When I opened up to my christian friends I felt rejected and abandoned by my so called Christian friends. They judged me, talked about me to a friend that claimed to prophesy to me when really she just repeated the gossip my so called friend said to her. It wasn,t even scripture based. My other church friend told me I was to angry and she couldn,t be friends with me any longer. Both friends for over 20 years. I was there for them thru many family crisis but they dont seem to remember. I am glad that I sought counseling at my church and am learning to walk after the spirit being tired of my flesh and emotions leading me. God will heal all of us because He rewards those who dilligently seek Him. Lets take off all masks and allow the Father to do whato only He can do heal us.
WOW! That IS an ‘aha’ moment — praying God’s healing will enable you to share your story with many to encourage others! Thank you for sharing!
Chapter 2 had the question: Do you ever feel like you are the only one who struggles with insecurity or doubt? Why or why not?
I do – my husband and I moved halfway across the country and we don’t know anyone here. I don’t have any friends out here and it makes me think that I am the only one who struggles with a low self esteem. I don’t want to share these struggles with non-Christians because I think it can hinder my witness too. My problems are magnified because they are MY problems. But I know that through His love, I can learn to heal and learn to see myself as His fearfully and wonderfully made creation.
You are not alone, sweet friend. There are SO many who feel this way, and I pray this study will be an encouragement to your heart! I know it has been wonderful for me!
Wow… I can so relate… I’ve carried a mask so long, the mere thought of expressing my true feelings is scary… my own acronym for FINE
feeling insecure neglected exhausted….. It’s tiring to keep a smile on and pretend all is alright.. Seeing others appear to have it all together… You wonder what you did that was so wrong that you can’t have what others have… Its a prison not to be real… It seems every time I want to open up and be real, the floodgates of tears are so strong, I push them back and can’t.. hiding seems to be the only option… But oh how I want too, and am trying to become stronger… but it’s a process that is taking me far too long…. I’m open for suggestions… thanks.
For years I have disliked the question that seems to evoke the expected but inaccurate answer. I intentionally try not to say ‘hi, how are you?’. People really don’t want you to answer that question and half of the time it is a careless question asked in passing.
I distinctly remember one Sunday morning when I was very sick. My worship leader said hi, how are you? I responded honestly, mentioning how sick I was and just wanted to go home to sleep rest. He was not listening. He said oh, that’s great! At that point I stopped and attempted to get his full attention. I reiterated that I had bronchitis and felt crummy and then I accuse him of not even listening to my answer. There we were. 2 musicians on the church platform, about to lead worship and while I had taken off the mask of ‘fine’ it was what the other person expected.
I can’t tell you how I cringe at that question. I don’t typically ask ‘how are you’ because I don’t want the canned answer. But it’s almost as if it makes others ask it when I won’t. I can’t even keep count how often i hear that ohrase at church on Sundays… Please don’t ask the stupid question casually any more. IF people actually answered the question it might put a stop to what has become a greeting. When you do ask the question, stop to listen to their answer. And if someone says “fine” have them explain.
Is it common to try to tell yourself you are fine as well as others? Does anyone find that she stays extremely busy so she doesn’t have time to look inward and face the hurt, fear, and insecurity deep inside? I have often felt this and the more I seem to fear or question things in my life, the faster I seem to move and the busyier I stay. Is this a common issue? I remember a time when I could just sit and relax but I cannot find that place anymore. How do you stop running and start living?
Oh yes, Leigh! That is a very common issue. And honestly, I have that one myself at times. “Be still and know that I am God.” Force yourself to bask in His presence for a few minutes! When I spend time with Him, my heart fills with peace.
Lord Jesus, I pray for Leigh today. God, could you just give her a new avenue of relaxation with peace beyond her comprehension? You’ve promised it to us, Lord, so we’re asking you for it.
Actually, sometimes when I am checking out at the store and the cashier asks “How are you today?” I find it liberating to truthfully say “I’ve had better lifetimes”, “It’s the day from Hell”. Everyone answers with “Fine.” Or just “Okay.” The truth is actually quite refreshing and you know what? I feel better after I’ve said it. 🙂
It’s almost like all the negativity gets released into the air. It might even be liberating for the cashier to hear someone tell the truth once in awhile. (Mind you, I say it with no discontent. Just matter-of-factly.) It makes the exchange more real.
I’m not fine nor have I been for a long time. It’s all that negative stuff from childhood that keeps me in captivity; but in a way captivity is comfortable for me because as long as I deny that I am not fine, I can make it through the next day. My husband is desperate to help me but I can’t bring myself to talk to him because sometimes I just can’t express it all.
I will pray for you, Becky, because it sounds like the devil sure would love to keep you captive when Jesus is fully ready to liberate you and heal you from whatever your past was. You don’t have to be chained to whatever happened. Go to Christ and kick the devil in the backside right into the gutter where he belongs. You are dearly loved and very cherished by our Heavenly Father, who just wants to wrap you in His arms and hold you close.
Beth Moore has a study called Breaking Free – it has helped me and can maybe help you also.
I love Beth Moore too. I’ve done two of her Studies A Women’s Heart God’s Dwelling place it was the first one I ever had been too and it was mind blowing. Also, the last one I did with her is James: Mercy Triumphs all: James tells it at is. I’m not used to that but it truly helped me understanding. This is what led me to this Study online. Thank you so much Renee.
I love the reference above about admitting we are not fine which in turn may help unburden another! I never thought of it that way. I
Jesus didn’t hang out with FINE when he walked this earth…He hung out with Tattered and Torn and He treasured them! The people that were FINE back in Jesus’ day thought they didn’t need Him, but tattered and torn knew they did!!!!
I usually just cop out and say I am fine when asked because I don’t want to burden otherwise or be the one that is negative, but kindly said and sparing details, I believe I can let another person know that I am not okay and open up the door to just be real with each other…what a novel idea!
Looking forward to finishing the chapter. You know how the rejections stand out bigger than the acceptances? This past couple of years have brought a lot of rejection (sometimes people do not want to hear or be part of your life)…none the less God is faithful. I do not want to miss the acceptance He pours out to me. I want Christ to live through me to share his love and acceptance to others.
Yes- why is it that the love of all the people that we do have in our lives is so overshadowed as soon as one person rejects us? Why do our minds choose to focus on what we do not have instead of what we do? I know that some women truly don’t have anyone, and for them my heart hurts… but I know that I have been blessed with several close friends- so I shouldn’t feel so insecure about what others think beyond those few! But I do. Thanks for bringing up that point to consider “rejections stand out bigger than the acceptances.”
I felt like I had been set free after reading this chapter. I really struggle with trying to live up to my standards of being: the perfect Bible Study girl, the perfect Christian witness, the Perfect wife, mom, kindergarten teacher, friend, in-law, church goer and what ever else I decide to put on my plate for the day. The chapter title gave me hope: Because God’s Love is Perfect, I Don’t Have to Be! I know that in my head, but so often I don’t believe and that shows through the actions of trying to be perfect all the time and not being real, hiding behind the mask.
I loved one section so much in chapter 2, Up Close and Personal. The Holy Spirit breathed into me hope and acceptence when reading: ” through His written Word on the page and His living Word in the person of Christ, I came to know an up close and personal Savior who pursues imperfect women like me.” This gave me an image of just wanting to sit in my Father’s lap and just let Him love on me, plain, transparent me…. where I don’t have to put on anything false, because He knows exactly who I am.
I also had a very shameful realization come up in the same secition where Renee discusses how theologians believe why Sam went to the well at noon. ” Many theologians believe that instead of avoiding the scorching heat of the sun, she went to the well at noon to avoid the scorching pain of others’ rejection and judgement.” My heart broke at reading these words because I have been there. I have grown up in the same church for my whole life — 33 yrs. My husband and I got pregnant with our first child, before we were ever married. I did have a wedding in my church, but when I got to the point of “showing” I didn’t want to show my face inside the walls of my church. This is the place where I grew up, accepted Christ and grew to have an intimate relationship with Him and now I felt out of place, like I didn’t belong. I would not go to church for risk of being judged and talked about with others. This was 13 years ago and just within the last year I am coming to discover that I have never really forgiven myself for my actions and how I went on about my life during the pregnancy and birth of our first daughter. In the one place I should have felt God’s love pouring through its members, I felt ashamed and guilty and not wanting to face the people in my church. Looking back, In the process of the shamefulness and guilt I went from a confident girl to a very insecure woman. This book has really been sent from God to help me work through these feelings that just seem to always be there. Little by little He is setting me free and giving me godly confidence!
I love all the fine meanings, mine would often be ” Fighting Insecure Negative Emotions ” . I am enjoying our study so far. When I read what Fine really could mean, I had to think of all those whom I’ve said fine to during parts of my life, makes ya stop and think what are we really telling others about how we are.
Wow! This is such a great post. I have to go read the chapter now (busy week). I feel everyone’s struggles as I read through the comments. My heart goes out to all of you. May God comfort you in the midst of your trials and tribulations, times of grief and heartache. Know that He is with you, will never leave you or forsake you, and that He holds every tear in a bottle. Jesus understands our suffering and knows our hearts even when we say, “I’m fine.” God will use you to minister through your pain. Be open to opportunities He sends your way.
I thought of men and women in ministry as I read this post. My husband and I are in ministry, and we travel because of his job. We just spent six months apart as he worked in another state. Before he left, we were leading intercessory prayer, teaching a blended family class, and serving the Pastor and his wife at the church we attended. After he left, I felt called to step down from these activities and focus on my four children. A tough decision, because we love ministering to others and meeting needs within the body of Christ, but I had to do it. People would ask how I was doing, and I’d answer, “Fine.” Why? I’m a leader in the church. I’m an ordained minister of the Gospel. If I break down and show my weakness, how will that minister God’s strength to others? But, alas, I am not God, and I have moments in my life when I need fellowship and comfort and wisdom from others, too. I think as ministers we have the idea we need to “keep it together” for the sake of the sheep, when maybe our humility and admittance that we’re merely human, too, would minister further than our masks.
My heart goes out to all of you, wherever you’re at in life. Thank you, Renee, for this wonderful ministry via your Bible study. My heart is touched! (Which translates: my life is changed today.)
Hi Alycia M, I too have felt led by the Lord to give up my job as a school chaplain to focus on my two girls and do some major work on myself as I am exhausted physically & emotionally from a very full on year.
Through Renee’s book & this study I have reconnected with God and am learning more about myself too.
thank you all for sharing your struggles and Blessings 🙂
In reading through all the above posts I see that even when we say we are “fine” it really means that we are not fine, as noted by the acronyms. I too have had simliar experiences with ladies from our church, one of which is a next door neighbor. I have come to realize that her question “How ya doing?” is not mean’t to elicit a discussion from me, it’s simply a greeting. So I respond with the answer she wants to hear. It’s easier and I know that she isn’t prepared or interested in dealing with a lengthy discussion should I choose to share my circumstances. It is probably likely that she isn’t “fine” either but she is always so busy there isn’t time for a discussion anyway. I think people in general are glad to be “let of the hook” and not have to listen to our problems or concerns. Then too, there are so many people with really difficult problems in their lives that I often feel guilty not being “fine”, because I should be, my life is pretty good.
Likewise, at work with secular folks, they too, want to share a simple greeting and get on with their day.
There aren’t many people that truly want to listen to the concerns of others.
What I’ve begun to do, is to ask people more specific questions, such as “How was your day?” “How are your classes going?” More open-ended questions to elicit responses, and then I just listen. And you know, listening helps me put my “feelings of inadequacy and need of encouragement in perspective” (FINE) And I thank God that he’s shown me that even if others don’t have time to listen to me, I need to take time to listen to them.
I like the idea of asking open ended questions. Thanks for sharing
I’M NOT FINE; HOWEVER, I GAVE ALL MY WORRIES TO THE LORD IN PRAY BECAUSE I KNOW THAT HE CARES FOR ME. I’M TRYING TO BLOCK OUT THE NEGATIVE VOICES BY REPEATING JEREMIAH 17:7. NOW THAT I’VE READ THIS POST, I’LL HAVE 2 COR. 12:9 TO REPEAT AS WELL.
Love that you are claiming the promises!! 🙂
This was great encouragement, I am dealing with something now my husband was diagnostic with cancer in 2008 and he is going through chemo for the second time. I tell people we are FINE because I do not want them to keep asking. But for sure after this chapter when ask how are you doing I can say FINE=Feeling Inadequate, Needing Encouragement I think when we humble and share our feelings the Lord will get all the glory!God Bless!
🙂 Love it. God does get the glory; He takes the worst and uses it for the best, Sister. Prayed for your husband just now.
FINE – What a joke, that we all try to pull off.
I notice my extended family does this at big family gatherings. I have 13 aunts/uncles, 36 cousins, etc. and my Grandfather recently died so we were all together to celebrate his life and mourn his death and the masks in that room were a plenty. I know that we are all dealing with the daily life struggles and in addition to that I have family members who are dealing with serious illness, family issues, finanicial struggles in addition to losing the leader of our family.
Yet when asked how are you, I would venture to guess that question was answered with a FINE 9 out of 10 times.
And we accepted that answer, seems less messy to wear our masks, accept others masks then to know how others are really doing.
I am not only going to work hard to rip my mask off but I also want to help others feel safe in taking their masks off in my presence. It doesn’t have to be messy when we accept God’s Love for us!
I love that last statement! May your day be more than fine in HIM!
Dear Renee,
This morning I was finally caught by my emotions. I have just gotten away from an abusive relationship after twenty plus years, and still feel great guilt that I am abandoned my spouse. i have lived most of my sixty five years within the veil of, ” Oh my goodness, of course I am fine. You look like something is bothering you, what’s wrong, how can I help?”
It is a trait that I assumed from my Mom, as I am sure many of us did. I nursed her through a horrid cancer that took her life after many torturous years. She virtually never shared the pain with anyone (except with me sometimes) and kept a smile on her face through most everything. Of course that is the way one is supposed to be!
I am making due in a tiny studio that is living, working, and existing space with pretty much no income at thisw point. My survival and joy has always been to know that our Dear Lord is there with me. But……….at times I just want to let my guard down.
You started it today. For the first time in I don’t know how many years, I sat here reading and my eyes started to fill up”out of nowhere”. I also, first first time in as many years am not trying to push them back. It has caught me a bit off guard, and know that I do have to push them back to go to an interview for a very needed job.
It feels a little awkward to let myself feel a tear roll down my cheek as I write this, but I know that many more must follow to begin to feel and know some sense of healing and peace. I never been in a position of be able to afford to buy your book, but I have saved everyone of your emails since I started receiving them as little jewels to be savored.
Thank you for opening your heart and the hearts of so many of us that have never been able to find the key ~ the key that has always been with us and just not known about.
Blessings, hugs and love,
Jennie
Jennie! Will you email me at rwojnaro at columbus dot rr dot com with your address? I have a copy of the book to send to you!