I’ve struggled almost daily with not being able to blog much since we got home from Ethiopia with Aster. Not because I don’t love every minute with my new little girl. I’m seriously more crazy about her than I ever thought I could be this quickly! And not because I feel pressure to blog.
It’s because I don’t want to give up this part of me. I miss it.
I’ve tried again and again to write a post – in my head and on the page of my heart. But then that little bundle of sweetness decides to wake up or make a messy diaper or do something cute that totally distracts me.
And I am starting to feel like maybe all my adult conversation words have been deleted from my brain. I still have the basics like” yes” and “I don’t know” and “when will you be home?”
But the rest have been converted to cooing and sounding out “ma ma” and “da da” and “no – don’t touch.” Do you know if it’s scientifically proven that sleep deprivation and an abundance of dirty diaper fumes affects the part of your brain that strings letters into words and words into sentences?
My days are not full of words anymore but sweet snapshots of the moments we have with our sweet girl. I can’t tell you how many times I pull her close, right up into my face, and take a picture with the click of my heart.
I am praying for a new way of journeying to the heart of God with you in this new season of life with a baby. I want to get creative and have a plan. Maybe have certain topics I write about like Monday’s for moms and participate in things like “Tuesdays Unwrapped” and other ideas that could give my currently unstructured blog/brain/life a little form.
In some ways, I feel like my blog is turning into a scrapbook and for some reason I am hesitant about that. Yet I want to capture the memories and stories of Aster and I don’t have time to blog and scrapbook. Plus I just signed a book contract (yay!) and will need to reserve some creative thinking for this bigger-than-me assignment.
I know God’s got a plan so I’m just asking Him to show me what it is. I thought you might have suggestions? Any thoughts on what might work for me? Topics you like to talk about? Do you get tired of seeing all these photos of Aster? Is that the dumbest question a mom can ask?
Since I’m challenged in the ‘thinking’ department these days I was thinking you could brainstorm with me.
Hugs,
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Dear Renee,
There are not enough pictures you could post of Aster's joy! All is where it needs to be, including mind, body and spirit…and vocabulary. We all have been there, going through it or will have it in our future. We are women and we understand. Congrats on your book deal! I spent a considerable amount of time with your CD's as inspiration when I was doing a lot of traveling. They soothed the static in my mind during difficult times. Thank you. Give who and what you are, and where you are at- all of us will be happy with that.
I just wanna see pictures. 😉
Just keep it real, Renee. That's what you've always done and that's what brings me back. 🙂
Hi Renee,
Your story with Aster is beautiful and please keep sharing your story with us! I can see her progress and adjustment to her new family in the pictures you share. I love hearing about your feelings as a mom and your love for her. Keep posting as you are!
Nanci
Yes you can. YOu can do all things through Christ that Strengthens you. Love you and thanks for sharing it is so awesome.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE the pictures of Aster! And more than that I love being able to peer into this journey of adoption and faith with you. It is more of a gift than you can imagine. Hearing whatever snippets from your life that you feeled called to share is an amazing gift — a treasure that leads my heart to the soft places. I love checking in and being surprised that you found a tiny window of time to share your life. It's like unwrapping a Christmas present — emphasis on the Christ.
Blessings to your and your precious family,
Ann
Renee, we WANT to read about Aster and see her sweet face. I'm amazed at the difference in her countenance in these pictures as opposed to the ones in earlier pictures. All that loving is doing her good! So keep loving her and let us peek in now and then. We aren't going anywhere.
Renee~
It's an honor to read about Aster's new life in her home with her forever family. God is using your words to bless others and convey His heart to others. Don't stop what you're doing. He gave you a new chapter in this life but it doesn't mean what you're blogging about isn't exactly what He wants you to blog about and it doesn't mean it's not important for others to hear about. God bless you days with your baby girl! She's an angel and will only be little once. Cherish each moment…there will always be time to blog.
So precious! Don't worry about us. Enjoy being Aster's mom and just let God guide you. Thank you for sharing!
First of all, rest assured, your blog readers aren't going anywhere. We love you and treasure your insights on life.
Secondly, maybe post some of the scripts from your radio show. I ALWAYS love your shows.
And don't be afraid to post snippets of some of the chapters you are working on for your book. My blog readers helped me write my last book because their comments broadened my thinking and stirred my creative thinking.
Hope that helps…
Love you and love that sweet baby!
You have totally encouraged my heart today. I need this little community of friendship. You help me feel "connected" and loved!!!
Love you back!
Renee
PS. More photos of Aster coming soon! My batteries died so I am waiting for LeAnn to send me some we took today at the P31 office.
Renee;
Your readers have travelled on the adoption journey through you and this is a new chapter in your season of motherhood. Please continue to share pictures of Aster as this shows how God answers prayers and what happens when we live with the blessings. Teach what He is teaching you and write what is on your heart. Don't worry, the Holy Spirit will give you the words to say (Luke 12:12).
Monica
Love all the pics and updates of Aster, Renee! I can clearly see the hand of God as He's worked to bond her with you and your family! This is a great encouragement of His Presence and His Spirit's intervention in daily life.
Love,
Andrea