Today I have a devotion on Crosswalk and at Proverbs 31 about the day I almost quit being a mom. It was a really hard day. But it really was the day I started “becoming” the mom I always wanted to be. One thing I learned is that I couldn’t become that kind of mom until I understood God’s perspective of me as His child.
When I finished writing in my journal that day, I sat down to do some work and happened upon a story about Andrew Carnegie that completely changed my perspective as a mom and as a child of God. Andrew Carnegie was the wealthiest man in America in the early 1900s, so wealthy that he employed over 42 millionaires. When asked how he developed these men to become so valuable that he would pay them that much money, Carnegie explained that “men are developed the same way gold is mined. When gold is mined, several tons of dirt must be moved to get an ounce of gold, but one doesn’t go into the mine looking for dirt — one goes in looking for gold.”
Zig Ziglar tells this story in his book, Raising Positive Kids in a Negative World, and then challenges moms and dads to look past their children’s mistakes and mine for gold in them, fully convinced that every child has gold hidden in their hearts just waiting to be discovered.
I was buried in the dirt that day. I felt like a failure as a mom. I was discouraged and so disappointed in myself. And I was convinced that God felt the same way about me. Then I started wishing I had a “gold-miner” in my life who would see beyond my mistakes and mishaps and find the gold in me. I almost inflated some black balloons and threw a little pity-party.
It was then that I sensed God whisper to my heart, “I am that Gold-miner.” He reminded me that I was the one who was being so critical of myself. I was the one who was so focused on what I didn’t do right. I felt like He whispered, “Renee, I see the gold of My image in you, and I want to bring it to the surface in your heart so that your kids could see Me in you.”
He also reminded me of stories and verses in the Bible that tell me He sees beyond who I am to who I can become. I knew this was God speaking because I didn’t think like that 10 years ago. I didn’t believe Him in an instant, either. No, it would take time for me to really let those truths sink in. But that day He used His thoughts to give me a new perspective of Him, and of myself. Then He challenged me to look for ways to have that same perspective with my children.
As a mom, it’ so easy to get buried in the dirt of discontentment, disobedience and mommy discouragement. That day I wondered: where is the gold in it all?
But after reading Ziglar’s challenge and hearing God challenge my heart, I thought about the difference it could make for my children to know I was intent on finding the gold within them. I wasn’t sure what the gold would look like but I figured if it was there, God could help me find it. So, I asked Him to show me and then I started writing down my thoughts. Two things came to mind – golden attitudes and golden actions.
I made a column for each and listed character traits like kindness, obedience, honesty, thankfulness, and compassion. I decided to look up Bible verses that tied in with the traits and wrote them down beside each one. Those not-so-golden traits needed to be addressed too, so I made a column for the dirt that buries the gold – anger, selfishness, whining, arguing, jealousy, pride, etc.
That night I went to bed thinking about what happened that day. For the first time in months, I was excited about my role as a mom. I felt like God was telling me to take my eyes off of my children’s habits and focus on their hearts. Finally I felt like there may be some meaning in the monotony! I had a goal and hope for some progress as a parent. Tomorrow I’ll share more. For now, I’d love to hear your thoughts.
Copyright 2009, Renee Swope – All rights reserved.
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Renee,
Thank you for the awsome insight. It is so easy to compare ourselves with other mothers and how we “percieve” they are. And so easy to see ourselves through others eyes instead of God’s.
I am a mother of 3. A 20 year old daughter and 2 boys, 7 and 10 years old.
Thank you for the great devotional.
Prayers to you,
Sheila Pomarico
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Reene:)I have been more than blessed today I was looking for words of encouragement and I find God through you.My children are 15 and 20 years of age,and I have recently going to a process of knowing them more and more and I have been asking God to show me the best of them to appreciate more who they are,and understand better from where things that I do not like are coming from,THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORDS AND THOUGTHS I will make my own list and I know will be a blessing to my life.
MAY GOD CONTINUE BLESSING YOUR LIFE AND WALKING HAS A CHILD OF GOD GREAT WIFE AND WONDERFUL MOTHER.
Oh how good is God to lead us out of our pits and show us the things we need to learn in order to be better and eventually great. Thank you for sharing your experience so others can learn from it.
My children are 3 and 4 months.
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Loved, just loved your devotional today. Thank you for the encouragement!!! When my children were all little tinies and needed me constantly mothering was tiring but wonderfully fulfilling. Now that they are just a little older, it is tiring and sometimes not quite as rewarding. Thanks for pointing me toward the prize and the encouragement that it’s all well worth it!!
My four children are 9,7,5 and almost 3.
See you in Houston tomorrow!!! Praying for all God has for us!
Thank you Renee!!
Sometimes we as moms need reminders to shift our focus back to where it needs to be- on the hearts of our children.
As a mom of 3 children under 6.. my days are consumed with lots of teaching/training. It seems that somedays,, they are all challenging me with things. And I tend to focus on the strongwilled 4yr old child who won’t cooperate. Or the issues my developmentally challenged 5 yr old son has, or my 2 yr old getting into everything.
I want to be a gold digger/focus on mining the hearts of my children- focus on the positive that they do.
Please pray that God will show me where to start digging.
Chrissy
Mom to Nathan-5, Gabriella:4 and Lucas:2
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God has blessed me with 4 wonderful children ages 5-10 but some days are hard. Thank you for your devotions.
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Renee, I've been receiving your devotionals for about a year now. I always enjoy them and look forward to starting each morning here at work with a positive devotion. The last few days your devotions have seemed to have taken a different turn for me. They have started being a sortof confirmation on issues that I have brought to God during my prayer times or issues that are weighing on my heart. It has really been a blessing. My husband and I have 3 boys. Their ages are 14, 8 & 3. Each of them are such unique individuals, and as precious and beautiful as I think they are they can also each be 3 handfuls. Today's devotion was so inspiring for me. Thank you for reminding me that desiring to be a Godly mom is not enough you have to allow God to guide you every step of the way. In day to day life I sometimes forget, while asking God to be with my children and to lead my husband and I in the right way to raise them spiritually to actually move out of the way and allow God to guide me. Sincerely in Christ love, Angela from Tennessee
I have a 5 young kids. I have often thought I cant do this. I dont have what it takes to stay in this for the long haul. But I guess there is something in me that God thought was capable and eventually this would seem like my hearts desire. There are so many things to do and I keep trying to manage my time well and prioritize but feel like I have ADD I get distracted so easily by all there is to do. If the priority were “mining for gold” perhaps it would seem more managable than do all things well. I look forward to tomorrow.
I am a mother of 5 – oldest is 12 yrs old, 2nd boy is 11 yrs old, 3rd boy is 9 years old, 4th GIRL is 7 years old and 5th boy is 5 years old. We homeschool and just recently my attitude was “I Quit” in the homeschool front, even though everything in my heart says it’s worth it – some days are really difficult. Thank you for your encouragement!
What a blessing your devotions are to so many moms that need to hear that they are not failures. I was talking to my sister in law this morning and she was telling me that she feels like a terrible mom because she was having to make her daughter (8 months) take medicine and I was telling her to get used to it. I just thought that feeling came with the territory. I so desperately needed to hear this today. I do need to look for the gold in the heart of my girls (5, 3, and 5 months) instead of seeing only the negative. I feel like I’m always on them and there is never any happiness or fun in our home. I want to raise my girls differently than I was raised and I want them to see Jesus in me, but I feel like they only get to see an uptight, angry mom that is never any fun. Thank you for sharing. I pray God will help me to find the gold in mine and my girls’ hearts.
Boy I have had some days like you describe. I seems crazy that in my early mom years I was so far from God, when I needed him most. I loved when you said God reminded you that he was the Gold Miner in your life. I have been rehearsing, Nichole Nordeman’s, I AM, to sing at church. A great song to remind me that God is there with me, being whatever I need at any stage in my life. He is the great I AM.
My boys are 3 and 6 now, and every day is better as I walk with God, because I know he can handle what I cannot. (bugladynora(at)yahoo.com)
Thanks for the devo today.It really ministered to me. My kids are 3 and almost two. I was beating myself up today before I read your devo and feel encouraged and not so alone! God Bless.
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Great devotional! I have 3 boys Nick (15, just happens to have Down Syndrome), Mitchell (8 soon to be 9, more brains than I can keep up with) and Zachary (7, my little love bug).
Loved the post! Thank you.
I have one daughter who’s 5.
Jacki
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Wow- I so needed a new perspective on raising my kids and this devotional definitely brought some darkness to light for me. I have 3 kids- Donovan, 5 in February, Seth, 3, and Grace, 8 months. I feel so inadequate as a mom lately because nothing I say ever gets obeyed willingly and cheerfully.
I know that God has made my children to do great and mighty things for His kingdom but it is hard to see the “gold” inside of them on cranky, whiny days. Thank God He gives us the grace to make mistakes and pick back up with this godly parenting thing. Thank you for your godly wisdom! It sure has encouraged me and given me more of a reason to keep “spurring my kids on to love and good deeds.”
Thank you so much for being obedient and sharing this from your heart. This devotion has been such an encouragement to me and two of my mom friends. We are all mom’s of toddlers and just overwhelmed with the task of “moldling” them. I needed so desperately to be reminded to look at their heart and not the habits. Thank you. I am very excited about following this blog and God speaking more to me about this. Thank you.
Hi Renee,
I read your devotion today at Probverbs 31. I read the devotionals there daily and they always speak to my heart and many times, God is answering my prays through the insights, encourgament, and prayers included in those devotions. I pray these ministries continue and more emerge espicially in these increaslingly agnostic times.
I espicially pay close attention to the devotions about parenting. I often find doubt in my skills in as a parents, even knowing that this counterprodotive to my purpose to be the very best parent I can be. Turning to God is my only hope for continued support and strength. I am the parent of three children, two of which I had the privlage of marrying their father and joining their family. The third is our child together. The task of shared parenting for my husband and myself is huge, as I am sure it is for their mother and her husband. It is stressful and trying, but worth it, very worth it. Devotions and Ministries like yours send much needed messages of hope! And of course to hear and re-inforce the word of the Lord our Savior daily. Which the whole world needs. Thank you and God bless you and your family.
Tonya
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I loved this devotional today!! It was the answer to my prayers (and tearfilled sobs to my sister) this morning. I have three daughters, nine, four and 20 months and often feel very overwhelmed. Many days I am ready to hand in my own “pink slip” by lunch time. Thank you so much for broaching this subject as I too had read the “Can-do” kid devotional and was amazed at your tenacity as a mom. It is always a joy to see how God works the women of Proverbs 31!!!!!
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I have a six year old girl (who thinks she is 14) and an eight year boy who really acts a LOT older. Both are incredable gifts ( I was not suppossed to have either one of them) We had them after 16yrs of marraige and sometimes I feel so lost. I know I want to be a much better Mom than I am. I would like to be the Mom God created me to be.
Thank you for the devotional today. I don’t feel quite as alone as I did. I want to be a gold miner.
Thank you
Your encouragement and ideas are wonderful – and so needed!
Andi, 3
Luke, 1
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