I’ve struggled almost daily with not being able to blog much since we got home from Ethiopia with Aster. Not because I don’t love every minute with my new little girl. I’m seriously more crazy about her than I ever thought I could be this quickly! And not because I feel pressure to blog.
It’s because I don’t want to give up this part of me. I miss it.
I’ve tried again and again to write a post – in my head and on the page of my heart. But then that little bundle of sweetness decides to wake up or make a messy diaper or do something cute that totally distracts me.
And I am starting to feel like maybe all my adult conversation words have been deleted from my brain. I still have the basics like” yes” and “I don’t know” and “when will you be home?”
But the rest have been converted to cooing and sounding out “ma ma” and “da da” and “no – don’t touch.” Do you know if it’s scientifically proven that sleep deprivation and an abundance of dirty diaper fumes affects the part of your brain that strings letters into words and words into sentences?
My days are not full of words anymore but sweet snapshots of the moments we have with our sweet girl. I can’t tell you how many times I pull her close, right up into my face, and take a picture with the click of my heart.
I am praying for a new way of journeying to the heart of God with you in this new season of life with a baby. I want to get creative and have a plan. Maybe have certain topics I write about like Monday’s for moms and participate in things like “Tuesdays Unwrapped” and other ideas that could give my currently unstructured blog/brain/life a little form.
In some ways, I feel like my blog is turning into a scrapbook and for some reason I am hesitant about that. Yet I want to capture the memories and stories of Aster and I don’t have time to blog and scrapbook. Plus I just signed a book contract (yay!) and will need to reserve some creative thinking for this bigger-than-me assignment.
I know God’s got a plan so I’m just asking Him to show me what it is. I thought you might have suggestions? Any thoughts on what might work for me? Topics you like to talk about? Do you get tired of seeing all these photos of Aster? Is that the dumbest question a mom can ask?
Since I’m challenged in the ‘thinking’ department these days I was thinking you could brainstorm with me.