I’m sitting on the other side of “my world” this morning, looking out the window at the Pacific ocean. Leah and I spent yesterday in two planes and three airports, traveling across the country to speak this weekend in Southern California.
I LOVE the women who planned this event and I can’t wait to see what God has planned. We leave in a couple hours to drive to a retreat site in the mountains.
I am so honored and thankful to be here! Especially now that I am here – safely.
I had to smile this morning as I thought about yesterday. Me clenching the armrests of my seat bouncing through extreme turbulence, reminding God why I was on a plane. How years ago I finally said yes to His calling to speak and teach His Word that He’s engraved on my heart.
I wanted to make sure He remembered that I hate to fly and that the bouncing and jerking and announcement from the pilot for all flight crew and passengers to immediately fasten their seat belts was not helping!!
I felt inclined to remind Him of my obedience. My stepping out in faith because I love Him.
“Remember that deal we made God? Or maybe I made. That I’d trust You and do something really scary – like travel and speak – and that You’d protect me. Because I really do love You. And you know I really do love my family, too, and being a mom and a wife and uh, many other things.”
Then I started reminding myself – my heart, mind and soul – why I do what I do.
Because I can’t not do it.
Not anymore. I can’t not walk in faith. I can’t live in fear. I’ve been there and it kept me from saying yes to God’s call on my life to speak – for 10 years.
I have to live in faith. I have to walk in freedom now that I know I can.
Jesus sacrificed His life so that I could. He gave so much more than I can comprehend. Nothing I give or sacrifice compares.
And the truth is, God’s most powerful work in my life, in my healing and growth in my relationship with Christ has come as I have stepped out in faith, believing and trusting Him – and taking risks to do so.
Living by faith….being sure of what I hope for and certain of what I cannot see.
Certain of my Saviour who goes before me and stands beside me. Who is familiar with all my ways. Who has a plan for my life – however many days that is.
This morning I was reading the story of the sinful woman in Luke 7:36-50, who took huge steps of faith when she walked up to Jesus in a room full of Pharisees and anointed His feet with tears and perfume. She wasn’t afraid of what it would cost her, although it was a big risk and a huge sacrifice.
Why? Because she was sure of what she hoped for, certain of what she could not see. Yet with each step of faith – she did see – grace, mercy, freedom and forgiveness.
She gave all that she had emotionally, spiritually and physically. But it wasn’t her sacrifice that saved her. It was her faith.
Faith alone. No bargaining or reminding needed.
Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.” v. 50
Today as I pray and prepare to go speak, I once again put my trust in the One who knows me. The One who loves me. The One who has called me, and the One who sometimes allows this adventure of faith to get a little wild along the way!