We were on our way to school this morning when I noticed dark clouds in the distance. I told Andrew it looked like it was going to rain today. He said he was glad because that meant they wouldn’t have recess outside.
It surprised me that he’d want it to rain. Earlier this year it was just the opposite. He was always so disappointed on rainy days because it meant recess in the gym. But not today. Something had changed. I wondered what had a happened to make him want to have recess inside, so I asked him.
“Because recess outside isn’t fun anymore. No one plays football so I don’t fit in now. They all play soccer.”
Now I was really confused. Andrew loves soccer. I reminded him of what a great player he is. Rehearsing all the things that he can do well – run fast, get the ball out of tight spots. But my inspirational message wasn’t working. He was convinced he wasn’t good enough and that it would just be another day on the sidelines.
It broke my heart to think of Andrew withdrawing from his friends and letting his insecurities keep him from getting in the game. As he opened the door to get out of the carpool line I looked him in the eyes and said, “Have a great day bud – and get in the game. You are a great player. ”
As I drove away I prayed out loud claiming confidence in Christ for my little man. My son who brings laughter and joy wherever he goes – when he’s willing to get in the game of life – physically and emotionally. I prayed that God would speak to his heart and remind him of how valuable he is, silencing his doubts and replacing them with truth that he can do all things through Christ who gives him strength and soccer skills. Then a familiar verse came to mind and my heart echoed David’s desire but now it was for my son, “Lord, I pray that Andrew would cry out to you for your perspective and you would make him bold and stout hearted. And Lord today if you see me heading to the sidelines because I feel insecure or doubtful about what I have to offer, will you do the same for me, too.”
you made me bold and stouthearted. Psalm 138: 3