(UPDATE added below)
I wrote the email almost as an apology. I needed prayer but I was hesitant to ask for it. I didn’t want my request to be a burden. After all, the friends who would be reading the email already had so many burdens on their prayer list: illness, job loss, death, cancer diagnosis, stress, exhaustion, relationship strains, overloaded schedules, etc.
Did my “need” rate high enough on the urgency Richter scale? Was it bad enough to ask for prayer or should I wait to see how things turned out before I let people know what was going on?
My email started like this: “I hate to add to the list of needs we all have, but I really need prayer for my sweet husband, JJ.”
Then I hesitantly gave more details and, after five minutes of hemming and hawing about whether to wait or not, I finally hit send.
Within ten minutes my friends who were on their computers started loving on me through prayer. Not only did they pray, they thanked me for sharing what is going on and for letting them be there for me. Charlene shared a story about a friend who’d been through something similar. Glynnis asked questions and made some great suggestion. Micca cracked a funny joke and made me laugh, which I really needed to do! The list goes on and on of how they each loved me in a unique way.
Throughout this week, they’ve continued to check on me with calls, emails and conversations. As I was about to turn off my computer tonight I got an email from my sweet friend Amy saying, “I’ve been lifting prayers heavenward for your family since your last email. Know that you’ll be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow. Let us know as soon as you hear results. We’re all in this with you, friend.”
Her last sentence, “We’re all in this with you, friend,” touched my heart deeply. I am not alone. I am so glad I didn’t listen to those lies about being a burden!
Prayer isn’t about putting burdens on others. It’s about inviting them into our conversations with God. It’s about letting those we love walk with down a path with us that we were never intended to walk alone.
Do you ever feel like your need for prayer is a burden on your friends? Why do we do that as women? Having friends pray for us is one of God’s sweetest gifts but it’s up to us to ask for it, and that can be hard.
If you’re still reading (since this has become a very long post) and wondering what is going on, tomorrow we head to the hospital at 8am for JJ to have a liver biopsy. Due to our upcoming adoption, JJ recently applied to increase his life insurance. The blood test results showed that his liver enzyme levels are severely elevated, making the insurance cost go from affordable to ridiculous!
Three years ago he was having a similar problem but tested negative for hepatitis, sclerosis, etc. He felt fine and didn’t want to do a biopsy so he didn’t. On the Thursday of She Speaks he went back to a liver specialist and was scheduled to do a biopsy tomorrow. I think the Lord has allowed this now because he wants us to address it.
So, if you want to join our conversation with God, we are praying that the doctors will be very careful, the needle will only hit his liver, there will be no internal bleeding, he won’t get any infection, and most of all that there is nothing major wrong. We’re praying that it’s only a “fatty” liver. I know, I never thought I’d be asking for a “fatty body part?” (as Micca would say).
Also, how can I join your conversations with God today by praying for you?
UPDATE: I am at the hospital and JJ’s biopsy procedure went well. He’s just a little sore from the needle and sleepy from the pain killers. He was awake the whole time, and said it was so weird to feel his organs move. I begged him NOT to give me any more details!
Thanks so much for your prayers. I have total peace about waiting for the results. Most of all, I am thankful there were no complications today. There is so much power in prayer! We receive that power when others pray for us and when we pray for them. Don’t you dare think I am too burdened with my life to pray for you. I am not!! Really, we’re totally okay! I love to pray for others. As I wait for JJ to be released in a few hours, I am including each of your requests in sweet conversations I’ m having with my Father today.