I’ve loved your stories about meeting your friends. Thank so much for sharing them. Some have made me smile, some have made me laugh (Hazel!) And some of you have been gut-honest about how hard friendship can be, and I love it (the honesty that is)!
This week I wrote a story as part of a devotion for P31 that will run next Friday. I am going to post it below. So many of your comments resonated the past week with thoughts and stories of how hard it can be to make friends and fit in with people who seem like they have more to offer. So, today I wanted to share more of who I am and where I’ve been.
I know how easy it is to see someone in ministry who is in a role that the world would require she “have it all together” and then assume she does. I cannot even tell you how far from the truth that is for me. But I understand. I have looked at other women in ministry (who were in similar places to where I happen to be now) and thought, “They have something I could never have. They are someone I could never be.”
Not just externally, but internally. They have confidence, security, special gifts, etc. But I have been shocked that someone would look at me and feel that way. Recently one of you so sweetly commented that you hesitated to leave a comment on my blog in the past because you didn’t think you had something to offer someone like me, but then you realized I was normal. Oh, thank you Jesus for revealing that!!
Actually, at time I feel abnormal and quite inadequate. I’ve especially struggled on and off during the past two years after God called me to be on the radio and to the role of Executive Director over three major areas at P31. Many days I wake up with doubt and wonder how I am going to fulfill the roles God has called me to. I’ll share some time how I respond to my doubt and experience God’s power to get up and go in the strength He has given me.
But what I want you to know is that I am so much like you – a woman on a journey toward becoming the woman God created me to be! I am surrounded by very gifted women and it’s taken me YEARS to get comfortable in the skin God put me in.
I decided just this week that my new motto is: “I can’t be what I’m not; I can’t give more than I got!”
But I sure have tried in the past.