Okay, this long post is to make up for all the time I didn’t get to spend blogging with you this weekend. Like Heather and Lisa B, I wish we could all be in a room talking and sipping on coffee or hot chocolate. Well, here’s the next thought I’d share…
What’s Wrong with ME?
Do you ever ask yourself that question?
Recently it dawned on me that when I ask, “What’s wrong with me?,” I am actually telling myself that something is wrong with me. Then I try to figure out what my illusive fault is so I can fix it. But honestly, my greatest fault is hidden in the question I’m asking and the statement I’m making with those four powerful words.
Why? Because every time I ask, “What’s wrong with me?,” I tell myself that something is wrong with me.
And if you are doing it, too, let’s make a pact to stop. You see, if we keep telling ourselves that something is wrong with us, we will live defeated and discouraged lives. I know most of us didn’t even realize (until now) that’s what we were doing, but now we know and we gotta do something about it.
Otherwise, the ‘real me’ (and real you) will never make her debut. (I am sorry that rhymes.) But it’s the truth. She won’t want to reveal her gifts and personality because she’ll be convinced that she’s got so much wrong with her that no one would ever want to be her friend. She’ll assume that every time someone doesn’t call, doesn’t initiate, doesn’t invite… that it’s because something is “wrong” with her.
But when we discover and embrace our unique traits, strengths, gifts, abilities and the preferences and quirks that come with them, we’ll realize we are the way we are because it’s all part of our “package.” None of us is perfect. All of us have strengths and weaknesses, but we are “fearfully and wonderfully made” – just the way God planned.
However, there is someone who wants us to ask that question. He often whispers it himself, what’s wrong with you? We have a spiritual enemy who’s determined to convince us that we’re alone in our struggles. He wants us to focus on our faults and spend our days plotting strategies to hide our flaws. It’s the plot we see in the Garden of Eden. I wonder if Eve might have even said,”What’s wrong with me?” when faced with her inadequacies and insecurities. How quickly she began to cover up.
But think back with me to what God said to Adam and Eve soon after? He asked, “Who told you you were naked?” (in other words,”Who told you there’s something wrong with you?”) God acknowledged someone else was speaking shame on them and it wasn’t HIM. He was warning them that they had an enemy whispering lies into their hearts, causing them to move away from Him and each other.
Dear friend, his plot is the same for us. But we don’t have to comply. Instead we can refute his accusations and lies with truth. So today if we have any thoughts of doubt or self-criticism, instead of agreeing that something is wrong with us, let’s turn towards the One who created us and say:
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them. (Ps. 139:14-17)
Also, this weekend I was reading all of your comments that mean so much to me. Amy’s confirmed the power of us sharing our hearts/stories and the power of us not thinking we’re crazy, or full of faults. She said, “Thank you for being so transparent and real and revealing your struggles so we can know we aren’t crazy and aren’t the only ones who are having these thoughts.”
Isn’t that what being friends is all about? Thank you all for being so transparent and sharing your heart with me/us in your comments. I am convinced more than ever that I’m not alone in this journey!
PS. The books Christi recommended in her comments on Friday’s post are some of my favorites, too.